Fried. Work is manic, I've been dealt a bad hand in a game I didn't know I was playing, and I don't get paid nearly enough to deal with it.
I stopped going to counselling recently too, and I'm sort of regretting that too.
But the sun isn't setting at 4pm any more, and I've got some time off over the next few weeks so hopefully I can recharge and un-anxiety my brain, if I ever get some time to myself to fix up my bicycle and get some KMs in my legs.
I've never made a mess with mine - I have a waterpik which I can use with my mouth closed around it like when I brush my teeth.
But I have a big old cake hole to boot, so YMMV.
"Labour Pledged" will be the soundtrack to dystopia. Welcome to normal fucking island.
Conversely I've met people who were diagnosed as adults and who then blame everything they do on their ADHD - "you know, now everything makes sense about me!".
Ditto with Autism, to be fair - you don't get to excuse being an arsehole just because you're not neurotypical, Dave.
I mean, there's a number of popular raw ground meat products that are safely produced (mettbrotchen, tartare, etc) - it's a problem of quality control more often than not.
I work with a lot of farmers. Facts don't matter to many of them, outside the market value of their crops.
I mean, even in the UK I can own a rifle and shotgun with minimal hassle.
But I can't in good faith recommend anyone moves here from the US tbh.
Germany would be a solid bet of you're into shooting - lots of hunting going on there, and generally a high level of English proficiency also.
What restrictions do you have? I understand that nobody is an island, rather that it can sometimes be helpful to reframe things in your mind.
Obviously there are immovable restrictions (you are a carer to family, or can't leave an area for any number of reasons), but sometimes it can be helpful to view things from a different angle.
English has "the arse end of nowhere" too. Wir sind alle gleich.
I've always heard this used to mean "I've gotta leave quickly" rather than going to bathroom; but I'm British so it might not hold the same meaning of you're not also!
Being single can be massively freeing, especially where work is concerned - you have many fewer ties geographically as to where you can go to find work. If you can travel (car, train, whatever) then you have a great blank slate to work from.
It can be daunting starting again but you just need to handle your shit one step at a time, and you have the luxury of being totally independent.
My android phone has a "one handed" mode that moves the keyboard to one side for this very purpose. Not ideal but better than nothing.