Melbourne

i got a baritone uke for christmas, and it's so fun. I didn't realise how it was tuned, so i already know all the chords.

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Saw the boyfriend today. He asked me why I didn't tell him how I felt when I gave him his present because I told him it was fine then but sent a text saying how hurt I was two weeks later. So what I took from that is maybe I should be more open with my emotions in the moment. I did say it is tricky for me to pinpoint how I feel and that the emotions and thoughts don't come to me until I've had some time alone. I think this is something I could work on in therapy. I didn't think alexithymia was something I struggled with but maybe that is actually the case.

I ended up saying don't worry about the card (he still hadn't done it) but discussed a little about our expectations about important dates. Didn't mention my birthday which is still a few months away (does he even remember when my birthday is lol) but he did bring up Valentine's Day and said we should go out for it which is cool.

He apologised for hurting my feelings too and I just felt overwhelmed and almost burst into tears. I feel weird showing raw emotion in front of him for some reason.

All I can focus on is the way I express my emotions because other people have noticed mood swings.

But all in all, progress.

Why is this such a bop https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7VeIdo3anqQ