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this post was submitted on 21 Dec 2023
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Haven't felt okay in years, I'm just trying to survive.
This is a very very bold question to ask, OP.
I wish all of you the best.
Not ok as I thought I was before anyone asked. It's been a long couple of years.
But my sister is home from college (~1000 miles away) for the holidays, and we're getting together tomorrow. And in a few weeks I'll be back to my regular schedule, at school and a job that I like. (It could be worse, and the last 6 months have been probably the brightest I've ever had, but it's kind of a low bar. I'm pretty confident now that it'll keep getting better from here, but I still feel suicidal sometimes, and isn't that weird?)
But this was a really rad post to make, so thank you. I'm sure somebody else has probably asked already, but just in case, how about you OP? Are you okay?
Buster wolf!
Oh that's funny. Cheers for that!
I broke off doing the whole Christmas thing and it's been treating me really well. Giving really hits different when it's not an expectation.
Mostly okay! I've been through a decade of infertility in the past and both of my (historically) happily childfree siblings announced they want kids now. I've experienced every emotion I can name about that but I've also had some good chats with other loved ones about it!
Seems a bit trivial compared to what some other people are going through but it took me by surprise.
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Not really. Money's tighter than usual, and work has been more stressful than usual. I'm burnt out and just need a little reprieve from everything right now, y'know.
I know what you mean. Try to find some time to relax, maybe hang out with a friend or some family.
I'm not about to kill myself or anything but no I'm not ok. I just keep breathing and waiting for the sweet relief that death will bring.
Thank you for asking! As a matter of fact, no, not really.
My partner has post traumatic stress and is an alcoholic but has been trying to give up for years (“That trick never works! This time, for sure”). The next day, she doesn’t remember all the stupid things she said and did the day before.
Her adult son is living with us; he’s autistic but refuses to acknowledge it. He’s rude, selfish, disrespectful, and inconsiderate to others. If he was “normal” (whatever the hell that even means) then I could discuss his behaviour, but he also barely talks.
Her daughter has moved out because she can’t stand the drinking, we hardly ever hear from her any more.
My ex-wife kicked out our adult son a week ago because our youngest is mentally unstable (bipolar? schizophrenic? refuses to see any kind of specialist for help) and violent, so it’s better if he’s not there “so he doesn’t trigger her” (Actually not “her”, incidentally they has come out as gender-fluid non-binary). Now he doesn’t want to see anyone, hiding in our spare room. He doesn’t have any furniture because we haven’t been able to move his stuff yet. He stays up until all hours playing computer games and only comes out for food. Doesn’t want to do Xmas, he’s going away camping with friends.
Although I’m in remission from cancer, I’m extremely physically fatigued all the time, but doing all the housework because otherwise it won’t get done. At least I can’t work, I don’t have the energy for that as well.
Merry fucking Christmas!
Rambo thumbs up meme
No, not really. Feeling left behind. I’d say I was celebrating alone, but I don’t have anything to celebrate. So I’m just getting high to pass the time.
I think so, yes. Really have always felt precarious but I honestly think that's just acknowledging reality, we are in a precarious situation. Surfing, not walking on land. But I am at ease with it, if that makes sense. I am very happy to be physically embodied and alive, and at this moment also quite healthy, I know we don't get to be alive forever so want to enjoy this.
Nope lol. Struggled with depression years ago, and it came back a few months ago. I'm not suicidal, but it's just hard to beat this shit back into submission.
Depression 2: Electric Fucking Boogaloo...
Also doesn't help that I'm sick atm and can't see my family over Christmas because of that. Can't even eat a proper Christmas dinner, 'cause I'd puke it all up. At least my partner is with me, so that makes it a little more bearable.