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The original was posted on /r/tifu by /u/Lemonfish99 on 2026-01-11 20:29:22+00:00.
So this didn't actually happen today, but last night. My school was hosting a Winter Dance. And a girl friend of mine (18f) was going. I (18m) wanted to go only because I like this friend, whom I will call J. J is a foreign exchange student and we have been becoming fairly good friends for the past few months, and I've grown to "like" her as both a friend and something more. So I figured that I'd ask her to dance at the event and hopefully it would lead to something more than just a friendship. So I had been hyping myself up more and more throughout the week, and on Friday, the first sign of my impending failure should have showed itself to me. I was going to ask her casually if she would like to go with me, but chickened out at the very last minute. I don't know why, but I just couldn't, yet thankfully she was going anyways.
So I arrive at the dance with my best friend, and I see her. And the pit of anxiety fills me once again. For around 30 minutes, my best friend is trying to sike me up and get me to talk to J, but the most I could say to her was "hi". She was talking to some of her other friends and I didn't want to be an asshole and interrupt. And eventually, I just walked away and stood in the corner. It doesn't help that she was literally the only reason I went and I hate any sort of music post 2010. And the only music playing was rap, Taylor Swift, or pop. And after less than an hour, I just left to go home. My social awkwardness prevented me from even talking to someone I know just because of the social setting. I cried on my drive home and just went to bed afterwards. I'm only really mad at myself and my best friend is mostly just sorry for me, and as for J, well I'm pretty sure she didn't even realize I left. So now I'm sitting and writing this, feeling sorry for myself.
TL;DR: I went to a school event to talk and dance with a female friend I like, and my social awkwardness prevented me from even talking to her and so I left and now I'm upset with myself.