Tomorrow will make my first week of full time girlmoding. Also I graduated college and just moved to a new city.

I want to say that I'm incredibly happy because I've sort of achieved everything I've been working for over the last couple of years. But honestly this is so fucking stressful. Like I'm very obviously visiblly trans still, and my voice is inconsistent, so I have no idea how people are perceiving me. I think I pass to some older people? Most people have been very nice so far, but maybe too nice sometimes? Like I'm pretty sure when a younger person gives me a random compliment out of nowhere it means I got clocked. Idk the uncertainty is very difficult.

But also its weird being away from friends and family. It's far from the first time I've been isolated, or that I've moved to a new place, but it seems different now. Maybe because I've been way more social than normal over the last few months, and that's over now for the time being. Idk my roommate is cool, but he's the only person I really know well here. Also, it's just hard to go from being so busy for the last few months to absolutely nothing.

Also I have have to start my new job while out as trans. Which is terrifying. Like idk I'll feel ok probably once I've gotten started, and my name and stuff is all correct, and I have a general feel for how I will be treated. But the next month or two is going to be rough.