I’m too embarrassed of myself to actually check but I am pretty darn sure that I’ve been sent, cumulatively over the however many months I’ve been panhandling here, over a thousand dollars, and it’s all just gone to stupid shit. I could’ve saved at least some of that and bought a fucking van already, and gotten my driver’s license even (things which I was thinking about fundraising for).
Also look at Creamsicle! He’s a burrito!
I do click on your posts in here when I see them and I'm not sick of you, but I'm also not someone who has contributed (only reason I have enough food for myself now is because I'm on food stamps too). But since you're concerned and feeling like the money help you got here went to "stupid shit," could you maybe plan out a kind of rough budget to try to stick to? I know it's not easy when you're unhoused (makes literally everything at least tenfold more difficult) and if you're always on the verge of being dopesick then planning ahead can seem completely pointless. But just forming an outline of any kind of structure to follow can help, in my experience. Like laying out what your next week might look like if possible, and committing to setting aside some of whatever cash you can get, especially if you do that fundraiser, putting a set percentage of it towards the van, but also spending some that will let you enjoy the moment right there and then. And writing it all out keeping track in a notebook or note app in your phone. Someone here might even be able to help you work out the logistics if that's something you wanted. I really hope none of this comes across as condescending, I don't mean it that way at all. I'm just thinking about what kinds of things would have been helpful to me in the past.
Oh and Creamsicle should know he's supposed to wear the foil on his head to keep them from accessing his superior intellect or inserting their programming. Or perhaps he's protecting his gonads? I don't know, I also don't want to presume whether he's got those.
Also Creamsicle doesn’t understand why he wouldn’t want them seeing his thoughts. That sounds fun!
Clearly I don't know him, but I've known others like him and was under the impression he may have elaborate designs on the downfall of capitalism, the kind of information none of us here would want to fall into the wrong hands. Apologies if I misunderstood the circumstances.