Having explored moral nihilism ( but you and I have been through that and this is not our fate... ) I just found it leads to consequentialism and utilitarianism: what mores would lead to the society I want to see? Which drops us not far from Kantism.

The problem with Kantism is there are conflicting ideals, and some rivals are at the door with mp40s looking for the Jewish refugees hiding in your basement.

Existential nihilism invites us to try to create that which is meaningful, what is potentially an impossible or absurd task, as Camus notes, but yes, the alternatives are either suicide or philosophical suicide (taking a leap of faith, typically in some major religion).

That said, getting murdered rapidly (instantly is preferred) seems to me a lot better than dying of deterioration over weeks or months, and while I live in relative comfort right now, it is precarious, and can be brought to ruin easily. So while a raid by SWAT on the warpath is immediately and momentarily terrifying, it's certainly better than a long bout of homelessness and hunger before succumbing to age, misery and the elements. Fire away.