I hear that. Catholic school kid here.

Lucifer ain't that bad on my book tbh.

It's funny cause... when you're a small kid it's very common to want to be a good boy/girl/other. Many of us, at an early age, wanted the approval and validation from those that knew and understood how things worked (in our eyes), but most importantly, had power over us. Lots of us wanted to be seen as good by them. You know, like lots of people (the ones that actually try) want to be seen as good by god.

Lucifer is a symbolic representation of.. well.. whatever it is one associates to them. However, most people associate the satanic impulse to that of individuation, of blazing our own trails and rejecting the established (maybe divine?) order. You know, like teenagers. Teenagers basically want to understand how much of what they were told and warned of was not true and how much power they have to change the things they were told could not be changed.

When many of us become adults, we realize that the people telling us how things worked when we were small children were pretty clueless, and many of the things they taught us were mistaken, but it doesn't matter if they were or they weren't. What matters is some of those people looked after or cared about us and did the best they could with the hand they got dealt. And you know... passing that down is a nice thing. No one's gonna send you to hell if you don't, ofc. You'll just feel better if you do.

And even if they go completely against everything we tried to convey at some point, that's just how people learn and grow (or transcend what was previously thought possible) so it's all part of the game.

Oh and yeah, Christians can be really shitty. Satanists can be shitty. The church can be shitty. Everyone and everything can feel really shitty at times. You know what isn't shitty though? When you make things better for other people. idk about you but it makes me feel good.

And about lucifer? Following the image of him or any other representation of what we aspire to have or become is pretty much the same as following any other aspiration. Like... whatever a deity represents to you or even rational stuff like love of knowledge. If you dedicate yourself to its pursuit and worship it through your actions more than anything else, you will see it everywhere and it will become the most important thing... until it fails you in a time of deep existential crisis and then you'll look for the next thing.

That's just how it goes. Now please excuse me while I go to keep dedicating my worldly existence to the big Great Pudu in the Sky.

Have a good one. :)