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I don't know where to post this (or if I should, but I'm lost). Skip to the end for the "too long, didn't read" version.

So, this may sound kind of crazy, and maybe I am. I live in a van, and I managed to live 3 months in the outback, some 120km west of Bourke. No one lives there, I didn't even find signs of humans where I was staying. I thought I was safe.

But I didn't know they round up the sheep by plane, so eventually they saw the van from the plane and I was told I probably should go since this is so weird.

I was going every 3 weeks or a month to Bourke to buy food and get water. It was literally the only time in my life I felt really happy. I've always struggled with depression, but now I understand that my problem is other people. If I'm alone, I can have a (mentally) normal life like other humans. This has been 2 months ago. I still haven't recovered after experiencing happiness for the first time. Life has lost all meaning and I'm just living because I'm not dead. I have to do something or go back. But I can't do what I did again. I'll live in fear of being found out.

So I want to find a property for sale that's far from people, but close enough that I can travel for food (maybe up to 200km), for maybe a maximum of $150k, but hopefully less. It can be pretty small, as long as no one can kick me out and it's far away from people. I can't find anything like that, or even much more expensive. I called a real estate agent in Bourke and he said it's impossible, only people who know people, and only massive lands. Unfortunately I found I'm incompetent in self sufficiency (I can hunt but I didn't have the courage to kill and I couldn't find plants to eat there), so it needs to be close enough to a town. To be clear, people are what I'm afraid of. I need to feel safe, to know I won't see any human, and no human will see me.

So, tl,dr:

I need a piece of land, even if small, for hopefully less than $150k, a maximum of 200km from the nearest town, but with no one around the land. Better if it's in the outback. Is there some kind of professional I can talk about that? I am completely ignorant of these tings.

I may remove this post, since I don't know if I should be posting this. But thanks for any help. The story is a lot longer than that, but I guess it's enough info.