I don't know where to post this (or if I should, but I'm lost). Skip to the end for the "too long, didn't read" version.
So, this may sound kind of crazy, and maybe I am. I live in a van, and I managed to live 3 months in the outback, some 120km west of Bourke. No one lives there, I didn't even find signs of humans where I was staying. I thought I was safe.
But I didn't know they round up the sheep by plane, so eventually they saw the van from the plane and I was told I probably should go since this is so weird.
I was going every 3 weeks or a month to Bourke to buy food and get water. It was literally the only time in my life I felt really happy. I've always struggled with depression, but now I understand that my problem is other people. If I'm alone, I can have a (mentally) normal life like other humans. This has been 2 months ago. I still haven't recovered after experiencing happiness for the first time. Life has lost all meaning and I'm just living because I'm not dead. I have to do something or go back. But I can't do what I did again. I'll live in fear of being found out.
So I want to find a property for sale that's far from people, but close enough that I can travel for food (maybe up to 200km), for maybe a maximum of $150k, but hopefully less. It can be pretty small, as long as no one can kick me out and it's far away from people. I can't find anything like that, or even much more expensive. I called a real estate agent in Bourke and he said it's impossible, only people who know people, and only massive lands. Unfortunately I found I'm incompetent in self sufficiency (I can hunt but I didn't have the courage to kill and I couldn't find plants to eat there), so it needs to be close enough to a town. To be clear, people are what I'm afraid of. I need to feel safe, to know I won't see any human, and no human will see me.
So, tl,dr:
I need a piece of land, even if small, for hopefully less than $150k, a maximum of 200km from the nearest town, but with no one around the land. Better if it's in the outback. Is there some kind of professional I can talk about that? I am completely ignorant of these tings.
I may remove this post, since I don't know if I should be posting this. But thanks for any help. The story is a lot longer than that, but I guess it's enough info.
Another thought. I don't know all the details but a mate manage to pick up a 30 year lease for $30k on a property around Lightning Ridge. You said you wanted to buy, but things might be different in 30 years. Not spending all your coin has advantages too.
Last time I looked into loans, a long time ago, they wouldn't do 30 years because of my age. I gave up pretty quickly anyway because I don't want to be a slave to a bank. Plus I'm not working anymore and won't find work in the middle of nowhere so they wouldn't approve now even if I wanted.
That's not all my savings otherwise I wouldn't be able to buy food. But I was spending I think less than $100 a week, so I don't need much to live. Specially if I own the land and I can grow some food, then it will be even less. That's kind of the maximum I can spend and still be able to live for a while.
This was a lease not a loan. I really don't know the full details unfortunately.
Like I said before, if you're living without a certificate of occupancy they can come at you for it. My dad tried but he's also an angry guy so would've told the neighbours to fuck off rather than sort any differences.
Excuse my ignorance, but lease is just renting? But for 30k?
If I got the right to use a land for 30 years that would be more than fine for me! I guess I need to hire a real estate agent or something to know better. There might be options I had no idea about. I don't really care about owning it, I just want to be left alone and apparently I need a paper saying I have the right for that.
And I didn't know about this certificate of occupancy... fucking hell... so spending the money I saved all my life in a small land is not enough? I don't understand... If I own the land, I'm not getting any service from the state other than the road, why can't they just let me be?
Anyway, it does sound like an impossible dream. But thanks for the info. I'll try to contact a professional to find out...
Mate. I've got a few more years left of city obligations then I'm looking to do similar myself.
There's a Buddhist blessing about have few attachments "May you die alone in the woods and your body be eaten by animals."
Good luck on your plans too.
That saying sounds a little harsh but there's no nice way of dying.
I did plan to get some way to end it quickly if something bad happens. Taking days or weeks to die isn't fun. But either way I'm ok with the idea. It's the price you pay for freedom.