I don't know where to post this (or if I should, but I'm lost). Skip to the end for the "too long, didn't read" version.
So, this may sound kind of crazy, and maybe I am. I live in a van, and I managed to live 3 months in the outback, some 120km west of Bourke. No one lives there, I didn't even find signs of humans where I was staying. I thought I was safe.
But I didn't know they round up the sheep by plane, so eventually they saw the van from the plane and I was told I probably should go since this is so weird.
I was going every 3 weeks or a month to Bourke to buy food and get water. It was literally the only time in my life I felt really happy. I've always struggled with depression, but now I understand that my problem is other people. If I'm alone, I can have a (mentally) normal life like other humans. This has been 2 months ago. I still haven't recovered after experiencing happiness for the first time. Life has lost all meaning and I'm just living because I'm not dead. I have to do something or go back. But I can't do what I did again. I'll live in fear of being found out.
So I want to find a property for sale that's far from people, but close enough that I can travel for food (maybe up to 200km), for maybe a maximum of $150k, but hopefully less. It can be pretty small, as long as no one can kick me out and it's far away from people. I can't find anything like that, or even much more expensive. I called a real estate agent in Bourke and he said it's impossible, only people who know people, and only massive lands. Unfortunately I found I'm incompetent in self sufficiency (I can hunt but I didn't have the courage to kill and I couldn't find plants to eat there), so it needs to be close enough to a town. To be clear, people are what I'm afraid of. I need to feel safe, to know I won't see any human, and no human will see me.
So, tl,dr:
I need a piece of land, even if small, for hopefully less than $150k, a maximum of 200km from the nearest town, but with no one around the land. Better if it's in the outback. Is there some kind of professional I can talk about that? I am completely ignorant of these tings.
I may remove this post, since I don't know if I should be posting this. But thanks for any help. The story is a lot longer than that, but I guess it's enough info.
Yeah, I found quite a few like that. But a)the cost of fixing those things and knowledge required might be more than I have and b)it's not safe, too many people around, I don't know what I would be getting into.
For what I can afford, it's only destroyed houses in the middle of nowhere that I can get. There is one in Wanaaring that I was pretty interested, but having to drive 200km to go to Bourke to buy food it's the same as living in the outback, with all the problems of living next to people.
In the outback I don't know if there is a council, and isolated as I wanted, I doubt anyone would come to check. But it's insane that I wouldn't be allowed to live in a place I own. How much more do I have to please society to feel safe?
I imagined if I have a paper saying it's mine it should be enough. I don't need electricity, signal, sewage or anything. Just a place where I'm safe.