The way I understand my feelings and experiences has changed so much pre vs post transition.
I wanted to see what other small misconceptions you all had from pre-transition that you see differently now, or that maybe you wish you had understood before.
There are so many to choose from, but I'll start:
Probably as a coping mechanism I never saw the gendered components to my self-loathing.
For example, I hated my breasts because they were malformed-looking, to me. I would sometimes think, if I were a woman it would be worse (like the same, but larger), but I never once thought having a flat chest would be better. Instead I seemed to need to feel having female breasts would be worse, so I could feel better about my situation.
Or how I always loved how little hair was on my body, but never thought that was abnormal. I never got back hair and only had thin hair on my belly and a small, thin strip on my sternum. I never thought of this in terms of gender, I never thought about how my body ideal was curvy and hairless, or feminine. It bothered me when I was compared to male beauty icons, but I never could quite be honest with myself as to why.
I ignored (or repressed) the gender in everything, but it was still there.
So my misconception was about gender itself, I thought of it as primarily social and malleable, and thus was some great social evil, gender was The Enemy or The Problem.
Now gender is extremely important to me, but before I would say being a man was irrelevant to me, or even obviously unwanted - it was a moral choice, to be a woman was to be a better person in my mind, to abandon a toxic social role in favor of an enlightened one.
Now I think you can't really choose, that we have these implicit gendered feelings that we can't really change, and so being a woman feels good to me because of what I am, and now being a woman is just a precious gift, rather than a moral imperative.
I totally botched this post, I wanted this to be succinct and lost my sense of purpose and have rambled along.
Looking forward to hearing from you all. 💚
That all trans femmes would grow chests like the other members of their genetic relations who had endogenous estrogen
That lactation happened sometimes
That erections would no longer be possible
That genitals would shrink by a major amount
That it'd still be possible to release fluids from genitals under circumstances similar to before
That orgasms would be possible, feel amazing, and could be multiple
That horniness would feel different
That muscle mass would naturally be lost
That fat distribution would be much different
That feet would shrink
That faces would look more 'feminine' to a certain degree, naturally
That attraction to men would happen, or that attraction would change much at all
That head hair would get a lot thicker and more volumous
That's all we can think of for now