Stop Drinking

It's been just a few months since I quit weed, but it feels like a completely different life. I had quit drinking a few months prior because of the obvious harms it was causing me, but I kept using weed. The harm with weed was not so obvious as with alcohol, but I wasn't living up to my idea of what I wanted from myself.

I think with alcohol it beats you up and knocks you down hard. With weed, it's more subtle. The harm is slower and more accumulated. It keeps you down, makes you slower, less ambitious, comfortable in your position, whatever that is. Even when I quit drinking I was still stuck in a pit and I didn't notice—or didnt care—that the walls were slowly getting higher and the bottom deeper.

I was a heavy user going through some 3–4 cartridges a week plus some joints on top of that. I was constantly stoned from morning to night, at work, at home, while driving, just always. My attention and memory were shot. I finally had enough. I picked a date and quit. Easy. I had one more occasion to use after that which I already planned. That one day turned into several before I got the wherewithal to quit again. The experience sealed it for me and I've been clean since!

Life is not perfect. I quit my job without a backup and I've been kind of stuck jobless. I've been living on a friend's couch since leaving an unhealthy domestic situation. The relationship didn't survive sobriety when our mutual drug use seemed to be the only significant connection between us. I'm grateful for my friend, who appreciates the homecooked meals I make (I'm paying my way with the money he's saving not ordering delivery! lol) I've been reading a lot more now that I have the attention span to do so, and I have progressed much faster in learning how to play music.

It gets easier. Good luck to you on your journey!