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Yes. I tried to be. Interacted with lots of people who "felt" and "spoke with" God and never heard or felt anything. Read about 6 versions of the Bible including one in Saudi Arabia that was recovered from one of the churches that were destroyed during the Crusades. It still had reincarnation in it for normal people.

Read the Gnostic Bible, other removed texts, and dead sea scrolls once they were translated.

Interacted with many other religions while I traveled finding they all believed as or more strongly than everyone back home and also "felt" and were "spoken to" by God and wouldn't you know it, God told each of them they were right. Funny how God does that.

Became completely non-religious, but very interested in the study of it and how people interacted with it.

During this time, my mother became a pastor. I came home and had one talk with her and she broke down in tears and asked me to never speak about religion with her again because I knew more than her and had nearly destroyed her faith in about 20 minutes. She told me that if she ever lost it, she's kill herself. Afterwards, she chose God over her kids every time.

I didn't speak to her much for about 22 years. She died of cancer last year, but it was religion that took my mother from me long before that.