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I had to explain to people that I relaxed after a few drinks because the more I drank, the less was going on in my mind. It's like one of those annoying user interfaces that pulls up a description box every time you mouseover anything, except it's analyzing things or hypothesizing about stuff, or going down some rabbithole hased on something somebody said. All while 1-3 songs are going on in my head.

I've managed to quiet most of it down as I've aged (and realized that exhaustion, which was my constant state, horribly exascerbated the issue). But my mind was exhausting to be in, so being out and overstimulated without something to dampen the inner voice was torture.