I'm going to add, you're confusing atheism with nihilism. You're a disrespectful bubble boy who needs to develop your social skills. Other people are important to your brain development, and your empathy and ego are profoundly undeveloped. Want some science dogma? Philosophies of mind, like Buddhism are really just pointing toward smooth operation between body and mind. 3 parts to your brain: conscious, subconscious, and other people. We are social primates with mirror neurons and facial recognition. That input is important for brain development. That's where you get ego and empathy. Work on it. Meditation is easy. Going outside and talking to people is easy.