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[–] klemptor@startrek.website 6 points 2 days ago (2 children)

This part:

Racing thoughts may be experienced as background, _or may take over a person's consciousness. _Thoughts, music, and voices might be zooming through one's mind as they jump tangentially from one to the next.

actually does describe what it's like inside my head. I think of it like background chatter. There are usually two to three tracks of thought that my mind hops between with a song playing in the background (currently it's I Second That Emotion by The Miracles). It's there when I wake up in the morning and it's there all day long. If I wake up in the middle of the night, it's there. That can be annoying because it makes it hard to fall back asleep. During the day I can quiet it down by concentrating on something else - e.g., listening to a podcast - but if I'm doing something that doesn't require much thought, my background chatter comes to the forefront again.

It is what it is. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ It hasn't kept me from being successful and it doesn't really bother me except when it makes it harder to fall asleep. I'm guessing it's just an overactive imagination? I've described it to my husband and he can't relate - he says his mind is blank unless he's actively thinking about something (and I can't relate to that lol).

I think this is just what's normal for me. If it caused distress or confusion, I think it might indicate some pathology, but that's not the case.

[–] TheDoozer@lemmy.world 2 points 1 day ago

I had to explain to people that I relaxed after a few drinks because the more I drank, the less was going on in my mind. It's like one of those annoying user interfaces that pulls up a description box every time you mouseover anything, except it's analyzing things or hypothesizing about stuff, or going down some rabbithole hased on something somebody said. All while 1-3 songs are going on in my head.

I've managed to quiet most of it down as I've aged (and realized that exhaustion, which was my constant state, horribly exascerbated the issue). But my mind was exhausting to be in, so being out and overstimulated without something to dampen the inner voice was torture.

[–] AngryPancake@sh.itjust.works 2 points 2 days ago* (last edited 2 days ago) (1 children)

I have it too and it's manageable as you say. But I've had panic attacks before and during that time it was unbearable. Thoughts coming in and out so quickly, unable to stop it, two or three songs playing at the same time, it was absolutely awful.

I'm getting meds now and it's so much nicer to have control and structure in my mind. So now it's down to a single song and maybe two or three thoughts at the same time which aren't shouting at me, they're just kind of there in the background.

[–] klemptor@startrek.website 2 points 2 days ago (1 children)

Wow that sounds awful. I'm curious, what meds do they prescribe for this?

[–] AngryPancake@sh.itjust.works 2 points 1 day ago

Just antidepressants, for me it's Bupropion.