Casual Conversation

Pretry sure it was a Nintendo DS/3DS or something like that. I never actually had a game console until recently. I now have a Nintendo Switch 2 (never got the v1, so might as well get the v2 since its released).

But I don't have friends so I guess I'm just gonna play with randoms online... 🤷‍♂️

The Zelda Games are kinda fun, still not finished with them yet.

In school, I overhear conversations about their Wii's, thei Xbox'es, their Playstations, and kids be like "Ooh I just got the latest one", and basically the entire socialization was revolving video games, and some were PC gamers but they had an actual gaming rig, not some potato laptop like I had.

So I realize that most of my childhood, I may have been basically been sort of socially ostricized because I don't know about what the kids were doing, so I didn't fit in.

And on top of that, maybe my introverted personality just make people not like me even more.

And I think one of the biggest problems was I spend the first like 5 years of my life in the United States (I arrived in the US on an immigration visa when I was a kid as part of my family) basically trying to readjust my brain to learning English so that few years of not speaking the language was probably enough to erode my self esteem and thus spiral into the mess I am right now.

I wonder if this chain of events is why I have depression.

Now every time I hold my Switch 2, I remember the childhood that other's got to enjoy but I never had. Kinda make me wanna cry.

Did y'all have games growing up. (Like actual games, not pay-to-win games running on a potato)