Reprieve

I've already posted a bigger post about some of my past, but heyo, nice to meet everyone, y'all can call me whatever you like, I'm the creator of this space. I want everyone to feel like they can come to me with whatever they need, sorta open door policy I suppose. I want this to be more of a community project and less of a 'my' project kind of thing so any suggestions or the like are very welcome. This is OUR space.

I've been a guitarist for a long time, decades, until my Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome started hitting me really hard. Especially in my fingers. It got really hard to play anything I used to be able to play, and then it got hard to even play basic chords; things I could play within my first 6 months of picking up a guitar become impossible. I haven't been able to play in years and it's hit me pretty hard. Alcohol has been a good friend, arguably TOO good of a friend, but it kills the pain like nothing else does. Mostly physical but mentally too. I'm in a good head space now but the depression never entirely leaves you and I've found I've been leaning more and more heavily on alcohol as a crutch. It's a thing I am aware of at the least, I know it's not healthy for me but shrug it's better than the alternative I feel. At the moment.