Funny

Just saying 'go online' and nothing else for starters. I 'went online' in the mid-2000s and found nothing but PUA and early manosphere crap that was utterly stupid and did far more damage to me socially in the long term that I didn't even begin to fix until more than 13 years after the fact. It didn't bring any positive results either. But due to my circumstances I just really didn't know any better.

Also when I did 'go online' or 'to bars' and I described some highly weird experiences that I knew weren't normal they would twist the events so badly that it makes me wonder if they were the autistic ones and not me.

For example when I was 22 years old, I went to a bar and started talking to this woman. She was older than me and kinda vague, lied to me about her name, lied about her martial status (before taking everything back, but never telling me her real name). This was in Dubai I might add, so the social dynamic is a very different place than it would be in north america... and would also really come back to bite me later. The only shit I had to go by was offering her a drink at the start...

But here is a kicker... no one ever bought her a drink before. Apparently she literally did not watch any western media or ignored whatever was on screen. Because the whole concept of anyone walking up to anyone in a bar and buying them a drink was a legit alien experience to her.

Long story short... I saw her a second time a few weeks later at the same bar and she had some friends with her. She treated me like I was an ATM and basically thought that as long as she groped at me inappropriately (she even grabbed my head and shoved it against her breasts, forcibly I might add since I tried to resist) she could ask for meals and drinks and spending money for her and her friends (without the slightest hint of reciprocal sex). However she and friends were giddy and laughing while doing it.

I described the situation to them as I am here without mentioning the whole 'this person never had a person buy her a drink' but I DID add it later.

However this did nothing to convince them that they were trying to manipulate them, and they insisted that actually I should have gone for it and lost my virginity in a threesome with some MILFs that day. I am mildly exaggerating, but that was the gist of it.

BTW, just as an FYI, in many bars I went to in Dubai, they were lousy with sex workers. I did have plenty of girls touch me and act all giddy (but not ask for anything) and offer me 'massages' (which is a thinly veiled euphemism for sex in case it wasn't obvious) for reasonable prices. The guys I was talking to weren't in the middle east and just could not wrap their heads around my experiences being different from theirs.

Even with going online, they said nothing about where to go, how to make a good profile, what pictures to use or anything. Even trying to message people they insisted that you must never say anything other than 'hi' at first. This is even when they actually showed me what they did and had giant text walls that they sent detailing whatever was on her profile. I wasn't able to replicate those, but their advice was just designed to make me waste my time.

Long story short. I am 41 now. Not a virgin, but dealing with a lot of bullshit. I dont care who I tell this to, but I am prepping to see a sexual therapist. I am practically writing my autobiography so I can just give it to them and bring them up to speed so I don't waste tons of time and money just going on and on with the sessions. I need actual help and not just someone to talk to.