MentalHealthSupport

I want them to know how I feel, I'm tired of holding it in. People always tell me to let it go, but I just can't, I hate unresolved business. How am I supposed to feel when the very same person who told me to kill myself is now dating a good friend of mine. Everytime I talk to him, I'm brought back to that moment. She says she's sorry and that she regrets everything, but I don't fucking care. She didn't change as far as I'm concerned, ever since she came back everything's been fucked. How am I supposed to feel about my piece of shit former roommate who fucked me out of almost $1500 because he was "too depressed to work" but had no problem e-begging for fucking gas money to go on some dumb ass road trip. Motherfucker I'm depressed, I'm mentally ill, yet I still have to work to eat and keep a fucking roof over OUR head. This same asshole has the fucking nerve to act all high and mighty anytime we disagreed on something. Fuck them, fuck everyone, I'm fucking tired of holding it all in. I don't care if it hurts them to tell them the truth, a part of me wants it to hurt. I want them to know how much I fucking hate them

I was doing good, until I decided to let someone back into my life who hurt me in the past. I was stupid enough to forgive her when she apologized. I thought she changed, but she's just as much of a terrible person as she was in the past. The only reason I even forgave her was because I thought that's what I was supposed to do, but I was an idiot. I hate her and I hate myself because thanks to me letting her back in, she not only fucked me up, but also ruined the lives of some close friends of mine. Between that, and a "friend" who I was renting a room to completely fucked me over. He used his mental health as an excuse to just sit around and do nothing while I worked my ass off and paid all the bills. I put up with it for 6 goddamn months. On top of that, anytime we had any kind of disagreement, he tried to act all high and fucking mighty, like he had some kind of moral high ground. I could care less where he's living now, he can live under a fucking bridge for all I care. I try bringing up my problems to my mother, but all she tells me is "other people have it worse". No shit, I know that. I know my parents love me, and I love them, but that doesn't change the fact that they kind of fucked me up. I love my dad, yet growing up, I was afraid of him. He never hit me, but he did have explosive bursts of anger. I inherited this from him, I've destroyed things over minor inconveniences. Humanity is a fucking disappointment.

"Studies show psychological strain can accelerate tumors — could beta blockers slow them down?"

just an interesting read on correlation of stress and illness

Anyone feeling paranoid lately. I dunno what it is but i've been seeing a lot of police presence and getting weird phone calls as of late. I dunno if i've been doxxed or whatever but it's been really stressful. Anyone else having weird shit going on?

I don't mean to bring politics into this space, but as I've been coming to terms with a second Trump administration, a part of me looked back at his first term and remembered who I became. I was a very, very angry and anxious person. It came out in bursts on Facebook and on people I love who were less concerned about the issues that were the main focus at the time.

I really do not like that version of me.

When the dust settled a bit under Biden, I learned how to cool down and be more gracious (I think to myself, "what would Mr. Rogers do?"). My relationships are much better now and I'm more levelheaded in my conversations.

I still want to be able to do my part in helping my community and to have brave conversations, but as I'm seeing his cabinet picks it has become clear that this will be an administration of rage.

He has been choosing every personality from Congress to television to twitter to lead the country, and he has been picking the most vocal and unhinged personalities.

With that as the backdrop, I want to still maintain some semblance of who I am and not fall into the pit of rage.

Has anyone else been thinking about this?

Hey all,

I couldn't find a community for helping quit weed but I thought this place might be close for it.

I've quit so, so many times before and I'm tired of the rollercoaster I'm on. I quit, my life gets better, I smoke, my life gets worse. I feel like every time I quit, it just takes one lapse in judgement to go back into it, and it can happen anywhere any time. I need help and I don't know who to talk to.

I saw that N-acetylcysteine can help quit, and I'm wondering if anyone else knows about this or has experience with this supplement?

Adolescents who experienced housing insecurity beginning in infancy reported worse overall health outcomes, including anxiety and depressive symptoms, according to study results published in Pediatrics.

It is known that housing insecurity adversely affects child growth and abstract development, but less is known about the cumulative long-term effects, they wrote in the study.

I've heard shit everywhere about DID, and I am / was completely convinced that the majority of sources claiming to have it are immature kids roleplaying mental illness OR young people with schizophrenia misdiagnosis as DID. Maybe I'm ignorant. I probably absolutely am, but I'm trying to understand it.

Then my therapist warily mentioned that I'm "a few points away" from a DID diagnosis. I was actually shocked, but some of it.. kind of makes sense..? But I thought that a DID diagnosis are not given out lightly and are supposedly pretty controversial in the first place?

Does anyone who legitimately has DID or knows someone who legitimately has DID, could you help me understand this?

I am unable to see my therapist currently due to insurance issues right now, so any insight would be invaluable. I'm struggling a lot right now to understand what that even means for me, my future, and how to deal with this.

Thank you.

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I suffer from adhd and major depression, both recently diagnosed and both resistant to treatment.

My toenails have been neglected for too long. They're ingrown and have been causing me pain for about a week.

I'm typing this as I'm laying in bed with my shoes off instead of cutting my toenails. Will I cut them today? Maybe, maybe not.

How about you, especially you fellow executive function disordered midwesterners? When is the last time you cut your toenails?

cross-posted from: https://beehaw.org/post/140948

NB: I'll be wary of being too perfectionist with cleaning/tidying up.

It's cute she thinks she's helping

It's very important for one's mental health to celebrate good things rather than let them fade away. How do you do it, people?

This extremely simple app helped me to get through rough times

Most things I find with mental health tend to be rather binary or structured, so I like this one that gives a very gradient scale.

How is everyone? I've been a bit quiet on here lately. Always working on my own mental health.

I found this to be a beautiful poem for coping with the loss of a loved one. Especially fitting if you are coping with loss on this holiday.

Ulta, did anyone use a brain? During mental health awareness month to top it off. A reminder to practice sensitivity and think before you speak/type.

I would like to post more content that people find helpful. What topics interest you? If you would like to submit a topic more privately feel free to message me.

I need to take this advice myself.