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That capitalism is anti-life

That private property is theft

That political power flows from the barrel of a gun

That Palestine will be free from the river to the sea

That gender rights are human rights

That love is love

That a liberal scratched bleeds fascism

And that the choice is between Socialism or Barbarism

She doesn't drink, so I'm kind of at sea with what to suggest for a first date. We end up meeting at this gelato shop downtown. We hang out for a bit and chat. I ask if she wants to walk over to this book store. We walk over. We walk to the philosophy section (i'm looking for Baudrillard's Simulacra and Simulation, have not been able to find it anywhere). She picks a random book in the philosophy section. Turns out its a book that has no business being there, a Brothers Grimm book. She opens it.

In the back of the book is $700 in cash.

We look around thinking, surely, we're on camera and this is some kind of prank.

We took it. She buys the book for $6. Then we went to a concert together.

I still cannot fucking believe this just happened.

how tf do i call out of work. i never do this shit and i'm always terrified of doing it. i hate my job and would much rather do the thing with my friends tomorrow but i'm a terrible liar and have a deep seated need to be seen as doing good, even by my fucking b*ss. does anyone have any tips for how to do it?

cross-posted from: https://hexbear.net/post/2766019

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Without getting into too much detail...I have been abused by women most of my life. I finally ended an abusive marriage with a female narcissist. I have never really struggled with this issue up until recently.

I am finding that I am often dismissed and not believed when I try to discuss this issue, even to therapists and my lawyer (all whom have also been female). I have almost no resources or support. There are no men's groups for this issue in my area. Often online I will see people mock people like myself. I have even had people on socialist sites dismiss situations like mine. It is beyond frustrating.

I understand how it is and I know that patriarchy and misogyny are still huge issues, but I've noticed myself feeling very resentful towards a lot of women recently and sometimes veer into misogynistic thoughts.

I don't want to be like this, but I am struggling.

Any advice on what I can do to control these thoughts and retrain my brain?

Interesting times ahead.

I was wondering what you all see happening from this point and what sort of timeframes you think these things will play out on.

Like holy shit this country deserves it.

Decided to take my kids to the big city, go to an amusement park this past weekend. Got on a rollercoaster, one of the turns my head bumped the head restraint sorta hard.

Detatched retina in my right eye for my efforts. 75% vision loss in my right eye. Headed back to the big city for emergency retina surgery because they dont do that sorta stuff in hayseed towns.

FML.

Like literally all they care about is the newest movies or video games coming out.

I wish I would have saved it, and now I can't find it. Anyone know what I'm talking about?

Anyone tried it yet?

Be honest, is it joever for me

the sheer RELIEF I’m feeling my god. I came so close to offing myself so many times lmao. This goddamnit labor market is TRASH.

I’ve accepted it obviously and waiting for the next steps. Gonna drink some nice wine I bought a while ago.

I was making the bed, and playing w my cat Maggie. I jiggled her belly, and sang a song to her about her fat belly.

She did that thing cats do where they grab with their front paws, bite down and kick with their back legs? It’s almost like she didnt even listen to my song.

I blame the Communists.

Had an interview today that I feel okay to good-ish about. Was hoping to talk to the person I'd be working under but they were tied up on time sensitive stuff so I just talked to the HR person.

He was telling me that in addition to a very modest amount of conventional PTO, they give a paid weekday off every three weeks. It was spun like a good thing because the amount of total time off was more than the national average, but that's pretty dishonest right? PTO is conventionally understood to be time you can take off whenever for whatever reason, not fixed days off like holidays.

I generally like the vibe of the place but it's got weird things like that, plus not being open to hybrid because it doesn't align with their "values" and some Russel Brand quotes hung up on the walls

You had to click on the audio file to to hear each comment but everyone was a mumbler, so they allowed a closed caption text box that everyone used with 1 second of audio static.

The rent is too damn high, can't have shit in California

They're gonna bury me with my badge

Hi! How are you! I fucking love echidnas. What's your favourite obscure animal?

How was your day? Mine was fun because now I have one less assignment to worry about. I think I did well, but I always worry that I'm going to get negative feedback regardless of how well I think I did.

Frogs are neat too. Have you seen those weird ones with the holes in their backs? Fucking grosses me out, but you got to admire a mom that would go to that length to protect her tadpoles.

Oh, and bugs, what's your favourite bug? I think weevils are cute but I'm partial to bees. I know, bees are a bit of a basic choice but they're cute! Sue me! Green lavewings are great too, they look like magical creatures of some kind.

Anyway how are you?

deleted post because of personal info, but thank you to everyone who responded and gave advice, it means a lot

I have now become hyper-aware of how often I use that phrase

Are there any phrases that people have told you you overuse or are characteristic of how you talk?

Are those three bots open source and if so where can I find the source? I've been working on a bot recently and I've been running into issues with the login.

So I "think" I suffer from stress, both work-related and from other real-life things I have very little control over.

I also have a physical problem: random twitching of muscles that one doctor thought might be stress-related. It's not that serious to my knowledge, but it is annoying.

Can people give me input on whether meditation helps in some capacity? Is it worth getting into? When/how often should I meditate? Please share your views or stance on it.

So therefore this misery I'm feeling which took about a day and a half to set back in after getting back to work is just my normal, my every day, which is deeply fucked up and very typical of my entire life and I'm so tired of always feeling miserable and moving forward despite endlessly broken promises of a better life just around the corner

I feel like I am crumbling and falling apart every day and am tired of putting myself back together so lately I guess I'm just... not doing that anymore. I've been crying a lot every day for the past few days, due in part to the fact that I have this dental emergency to think about, partially because of the 20,000 dollars my grandma left me last year I have $950 left, wiped out in equal measure by medical costs, car repairs, weed, overspending on food, and some vacations I could have saved up better for.

I turned 38 a few weeks ago. I've never left home, never had a degree, never had a girlfriend, never had more friends than I could count on one hand. I have no social life and I feel like I have no future, and have never been in control of my life. I feel at times like I'm carrying out a prison sentence for a crime I have no memory of committing, like this life is a punishment for something horrible I did in a prior life, a karmic experience of near-total isolation and failure and unending pain and disappointment, with hope only ever being a cruel lie that's yanked from my grasp every time I come close to it.

I really just don't know what to do anymore and kind of want to just sit here where I am and slowly crumble into dust. I'm so tired.

am i dying

so much activity in the last couple of hours!

good morning 🌞 thank you for being a bright spot in my day ❤️