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Morning from hell.

Life is so bad right now. Everything is fucking awful. But things could have been a lot more awful. I posted on here last night begging for someone to talk me into taking my psych meds and someone did it. They even worked with the stupid parameters mentally ill me set up for myself. I never expected anybody to send me money for cigarettes. But that pack of smokes got me back on my anti-psychotics

I really don't know what I'd do without you guys. When this website is down, it is genuinely painful. I understand why the site goes down, it has to happen, but I look forward to seeing the Hexbear front page than I do for anything else in my life. I hate to imagine how much worse things would have been in my life over the past few years without Hexbear. People on here have shown up for me more than anybody else. Thank you guys so much

Head strong I'll fuck up anyone.

This aged well

This goose is the Australian White Ibis. Starting in the 1970s, these birds started taking over the city-dwelling niches usually associated with pigeons and seagulls, so now Australian trash bins have a different bird rummaging through them than anywhere else.

Sheesh... couldn't ye have got out the hole earlier, ye insolent fetus

Father, into your hands I commend my spirit Father, into your hands Why have you forsaken me? In your eyes forsaken me In your thoughts forsaken me In your heart forsaken me, oh

It's been exactly a week as of tonight! He was grimbly grumbly and nippy when he first came home, but we're learning to work with each other's quirks, and he's mellowed out to be an absolute sweetie pie. I'm fucking thrilled! Only thing is he was fed bowls full of milk bones for a long time, so he's a little picky about real foods. But yeah thats it! Just checking in!

An acid mirage of a person lived rent free in my head for more than a decade of my life.

We came close to dating a year ago, but I am glad that we did not. I have accepted that the idealized "person" that I fell in love with did not, will not, could not exist in the flesh.

The song "The Recipe" by SiR helped me realize that the situation was unhealthy on both of our parts the way I doted and excused every flaw, by showing how from the other side, how I felt wouldn't have even been a consideration in making their choices.

I'm in a position to afford talk therapy for the first time in my life, and this burns in my soul deeper than any of the shitty things I did while meth'd out, deeper than (who am I kidding, deeply entwined with) the lingering insecurities of a lifetime of parental abuse.

What I seek is reassurance from other jilted limerents on how you eventually got over it.

What're you into, what're you looking forward to, what're you happy about?

Please

I am feeling terribly self-harmy in advance of my birthday next week

I got to the point of making a pros and cons chart

give me something to be vicariously happy about or something to look forward to, please

I did well at the interview. I produced not one but two different solutions to the test problem that was given to me, with time to spare. Today, I receive an e-mail where they say that they are afraid they can't provide me with 'conditions suitable for my level of knowledge and skills'.

How in the world am I supposed to get re-employed if I get rejected from entry-level jobs because of my overcompetence, but don't have the job experience in the area where I can work long-term for the non-entry-level jobs?
I love crapitalism. /s

Help me

This goose is a common loon. Unlike most of the geese featured in late night goose posting, you might think this is actually a type of goose. But don't worry, it's completely unrelated, they're just kind of the same shape. Loons are known for their wide variety of calls, all of which sound like error noises the computer on the USS Enterprise might make.

it's done now
pls don't be mad at puppy

It's still like a 7 out of 10 game and worth playing. Just know it wears out its welcome quicker than most rpgs

I mean I do care about it in the sense that I care about not wanting the US to become even more of a white supremacist Christian fascist imperialist genocidal autocracy than it already is. But I don't see anything I can do about it that would be even remotely effective. And more than that I just don't see anyone else who actually cares about it enough to even try to do something about it so what good is me "caring" even supposed to do?

Now I do see a lot of white liberals (and "progressives", and even some white people who consider themselves leftists) panicking about it. But then when pressed about what is to be done to stop it, their solution is always, always, ALWAYS just "vote for (Genocide) Joe", which tells me they don't actually care about Project 2025, they just want to use it as a cudgel to get me to vote for the same ghouls who are blowing up Palestinians and who have let the spooky scary Republican Party get this powerful. But when I point out to them that they obviously don't really care because they aren't interested in addressing the roots of fascism or doing anything real to stop fascism, they get all indignant and upset at me, call my takes "disturbing", "monstrous", "privileged", "psychotic", and after getting that a bunch I do have to wonder if maybe I just have some massive blind spot and am getting this wrong. But they won't tell me what is actually factually wrong about what I say.

Besides, what do they want me to do about it? They can't seriously expect me to back a party that loves genocide, but they won't suggest anything else.

Idk I just feel like the majority of people I see raising a fuss about Project 2025 and the threat of a "Trump dictatorship" are comfortable, privileged white liberals, usually white queer liberals, who have never had to worry about the government targeting their demographics until the last few years. I and every other queer poc I know is like, "oh, they're going to go after me for another thing? Sure whatever, put it on the pile of other shit they throw at us, what's one more? Now let's get back to trying to stop the fascist Democratic Party from stealing money from our paychecks to bankroll a genocide against some of the actual most vulnerable and oppressed people in the world. If Project 2025 actually lands here we'll fight that too, but we will NEVER throw away our solidarity with the wretched of the earth to preserve what comfort we do have."

Please Hexbearians, tell it to me straight: Is Project 2025 something we actually need to pay attention to and if so what can we actually do about it? Or is the furor over it just a bunch of fragile white people panicking because they might finally be lumped in with the rest of us and finally get targeted for oppression too?

I hate how cheap alcohol is. It's always have 50 cents for a shot around here, so I always have the money for it. Whatever quarters are in my purse is my alcohol fund. It feels like just being drunk and hiding it from everybody is the best path. I stopped taking my anti-psychotic days ago. I'm fucking up a lot of progress I made right now. Alcohol doesn't make me angry or anything like that, it just makes me recenter my entire life around it. It makes me only care about getting more drunk. I hate everything rn. Sorry for the rant guys, I just really needed to get it off my chest.

Love you guys

I can't load it, only from this instance can I see the posts and no images. Did the Biden-Harris mafia finally take it down?

This goose is a red-winged black bird. They were named by someone who's never heard of a shoulder before.

The solitude in my life kinda feels a bit less bearable today after being drained at work. Who's up to chat?